Logging on: Star Time 7 hours.
I feel like absolute shit!
I need a shower and something to help me think straight. I just can't stop shaking and crying. Though I dunno why, it's not like I'm surprised or anything. I had a feeling she was going to do something crazy. She'd recently become more distant, even more so in the last few days! It's just something I'd felt. I can sense these things. I kissed her on the cheek and she smiled, but there was something wrong in that smile. She looked scared and worried about something.
So, I wasn't surprised to find her gone. I hoped I was wrong when I feared she'd do something crazy, but I was not surprised. She knows we all love her so much, and she'd never intentionally nor deliberately make us worry, but she is one crazy bitch and all of us really do worry for her. She does reckless things a lot...and crazy. But never this crazy!
I'd also had a feeling I'd get some coded message from her; I was dreading it, and it happened, sure enough it happened. I logged into this bloody machine and there it is... a message from her. It's not to the point like she usually is, and this makes me worried. She's talking about a "childhood duty" that needs to be done. What's she talking about?!! I don't know, but we'll find out soon enough.
I really feel like shit!
I'm still shaking from the broken sleep. Fuck! I know Djex too well. I knew something was wrong! I tried to drug myself to sleep, but it only made me dream weird ass shit about floating in space naked. Then I woke up, hanging out of bed, naked and cold. The whole fucking room felt cold, or maybe it was just me feeling weird. I dunno, I'm just too fucking tired to think, or log much more here right now. And I'm not as perfect in the common tongue as a lot of people.
I need a stim-drink. I just can't think till I have one. I'll be meeting Azzogh in a sec, and Vandioch wants to meet us all. I think they're all scared for Djex. I know I am as well.
Signing off now. I need that drink.
Logging off: Star Time 7 hours, 30 minutes.